what a mess

wow.. was an emotional wreck today.

i guess i've been on autopilot mode these past few days, or at least during the work week, that i didn't even realize how sad it is coming home to an empty apartment. at first, it felt like such an accomplishment, actually making dinner for myself. but after today, i realize that the weeks that tim and i have been living on our own have been somewhat depressing. tim and i hardly catch each other anymore. he gets home past midnight when i'm already sleeping. and i leave pretty early when he's still sleeping.

i realize this when belle texted me earlier today asking what i'll be doing after work. when she invited me over for dinner, i actually broke down crying at my work station. what a doof. haha.. and it didn't help at all that "comfort in your strangeness" by cynthia alexander was playing on my ipod. that song can always bring out the tears in me. hehe.. my co-workers are probably wondering what's wrong. but whatever. it actually feels like a huge relief that i'll be having dinner tonight with cousins.

living alone has its benefits. sure, it's nice not having anyone be all up on your back about curfew and rules. but it gets old fast.